Ballerina Dreams

Welcome to my page!
These days I'm growing more comfortable to express my most favorite life stories of my previous Life/Incarnation.
This will be a long journey and a story that may so far be untold and misunderstood by many.
I'm going to share glimpses of my previous life and the current now.
I Had Intense suspicions and synchronicities even years before the psychics started to tell me that I died in my previous life from drugs, that I died young...and then a few would come to tell me I was a woman named "Edie" and yet another said my name began with the initial "E."

The rest of this has been my own understandings and these days I'm growing more comfortable to express my most favorite life stories where I can truly say was my home and even my friends were my closest home compared to now.

I was reading more on twin-souls tonite, my psychic account got suspended and I was a bit disapointed I thought that it was from my own doing, but it turns out its from a credit card issue. I didn't want my expert account to be deleted. I signed up to help others and rarely ever ask for them to hire. It's cool because i have one of the top experts rating on there.

Anyways...tonight I've had pains pulsin' through me, looks like its another late night, sometimes I go three days without sleep and my heart hurts a lot, so I am doing my best to get on a normal schedule. Looks like all the criminals have gone down too, but Bobby is still here with me on this planet though he appears far. Some nite I jump up straight out of bed and have to write to him or a poem or something, its crazy.

So I saw a picture earlier of Edie Sedgwick balancing like a ballerina. It reminded me of when i was a little girl, I was my Daddies princess, I was a true ballerina but I didn't get classes. I was quiet and deepy withdrawn sometimes, and other times leading the way with laughter and charm.
My Dad bought me a jewelery box once, it had a little rotating ballerina it was really special to me, i'd get lost in those things, anything imaginative...Christmas globes, all of that. tragically pure at heart and absorbed in it.

This Diary shall help me greatly.

Most of the writing go scattered on my computer or in notebooks all around my room. I know this may seem crazy but I am Here I am Back in a new body, I told my ma the other day that I think God wanted me to be in a youthful new body while all my other friends aged but that's just a perspective that makes me feel good, and especially good for my TwinSoul/ TwinFlame who happens to have lived with me in that lifetime. He continues to be my most beloved friend and when we connected recently at his shows it has changed a lot of things. I feel proud that I can be beautiful and attractive to him after all these years haha. I think he would agree. Who knows maybe he will revert too and come back soon when he passes bodies. Either way, the bond is so strong that life, time and Death can't intrude for long, and either way i will recognize his spirit. We truly are Eternal Spirit living a human life my friends. If you don't believe me I hope you will come to know it yourself sometime.

So just where is the cut off line, and what is too much? I'm not sure when it comes to true love or care, that's the one thing I know.

I want to and I love to share my experiences with my readers about this wonderful journey. I'd like to talk about how it began and the "evidence" I have; the people I knew in that life that i have connected to again by soul...not body. Because see...my brain in this life has no reason to know the things it does, that's how I like to explain it. If it were this brain that dreams the details I dream, I think that would be an illusion, there is much beyond the physical and i've been a huge researcher on metaphysical studies for about 5 years now. If anyone wants to know glimpses of the true story of Edith M. Sedgwick.

You may not believe me, but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt by saying, If i am not the spirit of Edie, she stands beside me and within me, as one with me and like the show must go on, this story she feels needs to be heard and may help others who struggle with deep past life memories, loss and the longing and the coming close of true unification.

One night a random reader said that she mistakes my body for hers. I began respecting her as a seperate entity or life expression, in that sense by talking in the third person we began to get more insight maybe just because it creates more of a space for answers to come through.

Since then I was torn and tortured, and someone even asked me "Does it feel strange to have the spirit of a dead person with you?"

...And my reply was absolutely not,

for me there is no separation and I don't believe in death the same as others. The dreams I have had are as myself in another time, this is the only reason I'm inclined to believe that the reader misunderstood my situation. More where this came from.

For 23 years of my present life I was in a sort of Spiritual Amnesia and I'm bringing the pieces together now with faith.

I just heard a loud ringing in my left ear, something came through but I'm not sure, i'm running out of steam tonight, but I'm so glad to be starting this I've been putting it off for a few reasons.
I feel ready and if there is anyone who would like me to help them with their Twinsoul Questions I'd Love to talk
my skype ID is: Historys1today

Blessings,
Mariah & Edie